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Saturday, November 3, 2018

Compete.

This week I was at strength training and it was just one of those days where I could do nothing right.  Granted, strength training is not my area of expertise, but it just seemed every single lift, I was doing something wrong.  After an hour of constant corrections, Chris said let's end with a game, and handed me a paddle & ball.  And with one line, we started, "you can let the ball bounce once on your side and we play to 15."
I had never played "pickle-ball", didn't know the rules, and just wasn't ready for it.  And just like that, I was down 5-0. 😑 At which point he yelled at me, "Come on CB, COMPETE, you're an athlete aren't you?.. let's go." 
Which fired me up, are you kidding me? {in my head}🠞I know how to compete, I just have never played this game, don't tell me to compete, I'll show you how to frikkin compete....* (I love Chris, just not at that moment, competitiveness tends to bring out the worst in meπŸ™ˆ).
I won.
Now, this was probably intentional, getting me out of my head, and just reminding me to do what I do best, compete.  And it was a reality check for me in general.
I need to not dwell on the difficult year that has been.
I need to not have anxiety about what the future may hold.
I need to be right here, right now, and compete.

So instead of re-hashing what has been, or sharing what it is that I really want....how about instead talking about what is?

I'm in the thick of training, dialed in.
Ran a 10K to kick off the rust. Got the Win.
Running 13.1 on Thanksgiving. In Atlanta. Near family I love.  Full Heart.
Racing 13.1 in December as a final tune up.  Need to be Smart.
Competing in Houston in January for Jane & Jen Cyr.  Cancer have Fear. πŸ”₯

Many people who have followed this journey know that Jane Cyr, a close friend and my personal hero, has been battling cancer like a champ. And now it's back πŸ™ She has been a personal inspiration and source of light for me.  As if that cross wasn't enough to bear, her daughter, Jen, also an amazing person, has had to battle the same fight.  Cancer sucks.  There is no way around that.  Houston is my battle cry against it, for Jane, for Jen.  It's my turn to give light back to them.    One on one against something that just doesn't even know who it's messing with.  It's what I do best, compete.
Houston is for you Jane & Jen πŸ’“πŸƒ





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